Last January as we stood on the brink of 2020, we could not have imagined what the year would bring.
A global pandemic.
The loss of Ron's mom.
The loss of my aunt.
So many changes of plans. Postponements. Cancellations. Endings.
Plan A, then B, then C . . . Plan R?
Changes of lifestyle. Changes in how we do the basics.
Misunderstanding. Strained relationships.
And yet . . .
There was precious new grandbaby Caleb, and the news of two more grandbabies on the way!
There were answers to prayer . . . for Caleb's restoration to good health, for safe travels across many miles, for big and small requests.
There was the birth of my cousin's sweet baby girl who has been such a gift to a family in grief.
There has been the settling into a church home.
There has been financial provision with the ability of Ron to do his job from home.
There has been the unfailing faithfulness of our God.
Would I have changed any of those things, if it was in my power to change them? Absolutely! Yet my trust is in the One who knows all things and does all things well.
So again, I stand on the cusp of a new year, not knowing what will be, and I pray this prayer with Moses of old. God had directed Moses to take His people into the Promised Land, and Moses pled with the Lord for direction, and for assurance that he had found grace in His sight. God answered him, "My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." Then Moses said,
"If your presence does not go with us, do not bring us up from here."
That is how I feel, here on the edges of a new year. I don't know what the days will hold, but I know that I don't want to walk through any of it, the pleasant or the uncomfortable, the easy or the difficult, without His presence.
" . . . and lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the age." Matthew 26:20
" . . . For He Himself has said, 'I will never leave you nor forsake you." Hebrews 13:5