One night as they sat down to watch, Bekah said, "I hate James."
"You hate James?!," I questioned, assuming that she was speaking of James Garner. I was wondering why she was so enamored with The Rockford Files if she "hated" James!
But Bekah looked at me as if I had two heads.
And then: 😭
Because the most recent change that is just around the bend for our family is that Ryan and Sarah are moving.
But, it changes so much.
No more weekly piano lessons (where Bekah teaches and I hang out and see the bedtime routines and drink coffee and talk and laugh).
We won't see the two babies as frequently, and we all know how quickly babies grow and change.
The older girls won't be in our book club.
What about birthday coffee/dessert/gift evenings . . . times eight?
How about summer beach days?
Larger family gatherings (seasonal birthday celebrations, holidays) will be harder to coordinate.
When Kati and family come to Maryland to visit, Ryan and family will not be here.
And when both families visit us (as we hope for Thanksgiving this year), where will we put everybody?!
Soooo . . .
Yes, I know that three hours is not that far.
Yes, I know that this change is not all about ME.
Yes, I am happy for Ryan and family because they are happy about their new adventure.
But, also yes, I reserve the right to grieve this change while my internal Mama-GPS "recalculates."
Because I will miss them terribly!
And, like Bekah . . .
I hate James! *
* "I hate James" will probably be a permanent idiom in our family vocabulary.)